There are so many. There are so many people at so many times doing so many things.
Things that feel right for them. Things that they’re doing purely for others. Things that are being done for no particular reason at all.
And with all these things intersecting and conflicting. With all these things going in every which direction. With all these things, how can two people be expected to be okay with just each other? With just the things they have to give and the things they get?
How do they not fall victim to all the other things in orbit around them?
These things keep me up at night.
I don’t think I’m made for relationships.
I spend too much of them wanting to punch the other person in the face.
Someone recently told me:
“You can’t love without being loved back. Because what loving someone really means is loving them for loving you.”
I’m trying to decide if I believe that or not.